ray of hope

I told myself i would stay off facebook.
Mainly because i dont want to see everything he's been up to, and how happy he is.
I want him to hurt and be sad like i am.
I want him to fight back tears when he thinks of me, like i do when i think of him.

But even though i promised myself i wouldn't look at facebook, i have. many times.
The thing i look at most if the bit that says "... in a relationship with..."
Right now, we're still in a relationship.
Either because he can't figure out how to change it, or because he hasnt been on a computer to be able to change it, or because he is avoiding facebook like i am, or because there is a big part of him that was just angry and said what he said because he was hurting, and because he still wants to be with me.
I'm putting all my money on the last one. Because he wants to be with me still.
I just hope i dont lose big time :-(